An Easy, Comical One

[Meulaboh, November 2010]

When your dreams slip through your hands and fly away, let go of disappointment
When loneliness kisses you, let go of self-pity and gloomy face
When your heart is hurt by a trusted friend, let go of bitterness
When the one who promised to always be there walked away, let him go and wish him the best
I’ll stand strong, I’ll move on
I’ll walk on the road though it seems so quiet and tough
‘cause I’ve been through this and I will be okay
Nananana…I will be okay…I will be okay…

Life can break me, love can fool me, Lindt* can allure me
It’s psychotic, super outrageous, mind-boggling
cracked my head and flirted with insomnia
choked my tiny throat that only cointreau** could remedy

Yet I see hope hopping flopping and soaring
an angel whispered a heavenly song
about a little girl*** who is always remembered and loved by Him
no perfection is required, only a shattered heart

The weather is crispy, rainbow gracefully dances in the blue sky
When sunshine embraces, I will sip good coffee and know I will be alright
Nananana…I will be alright…I will be alright…


* a brand of Swiss chocolate
** a brand of liqueur
*** can change that with your name


“…everything can be taken from a man or a woman but one thing: the last of human freedoms to choose one's attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one's own way.” (Victor Frankl)

Sebuah Nama

Adakah cinta yang sebenarnya?
Dan jika berbeda, bolehkah merekah?
Ataukah keindahannya sebuah fatamorgana?

Dalam tahun-tahun yang berganti
kan selalu kau temukan dia disini
bersama deburan ombak dan langit senja
yang berbisik lembut di setiap pertemuan dulu
Dan semua cerita yang pernah mengalir
pada malam-malam saat ia masih terjaga
biarlah kerinduan yang sungguh menengahi jarak
dan mengecup batas perbedaan yang enggan pergi

Kepakkanlah lagi sayap-sayapmu yang pernah patah
tak usah hiraukan luka dia yang tertinggal
karna perjalananmu tak bertepi
dan kesedihan hanya kan mencabik harapanmu menjadi serpihan

Adalah sebuah nama yang melekat
sebuah rupa yang ukir bahagia
hanya waktu yang mampu menghapusnya


Meulaboh, May 2010

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I heard our song
reminded me of the journey we had taken together
of the gravels on which your feet stumbled
you cried while I led you downhill
shoo...shoo...my baby...
I'm here with you
Have I not always been present for you?

I saw your passionate smile on the other day
the hours you spent putting colors on your face
oh your beauty so radiant
broken words sincerely composed
to portray your yearnings of Me
the way you call My name
how flattered to see such innocence

I know you feel lonely sometimes
by the river you lamented over your inadequacy
self-defense is your masquarade
oh I am too familiar with your finiteness
the night terrors invite your fears in
and deadly shatter your pillar of confidence
so vulnerable your heart to distractions
so detached you are from holyness

I send you tender kisses through the morning dews
into your soul I breathe in part of My entity
through the wind I whisper My everlasting promises
I paint all your dreams on the starry sky
so you have every reason to gaze the beauty of My love
and the width of My forgiveness
I fought the darkness to reach out for you
I gave My life so you may live. and be free

How can I not love you this much?

(Bandung, March 2009)

Kita

Kita dulu punya kisah
tentang senja yang menghampiri langit
kala angin memeluk hangat wajah kita
di atas lembutnya hamparan pasir
langkah-langkah kita menari indah

Kita dulu punya sajak
tentang bintang-bintang yang mengecup malam
untaian kata merangkai hari-hari kita
yang sungkan disinggahi sepi
kita pun melebur dalam musim-musim
yang luruhkan batas-batas perbedaan

Senjaku tak lagi sama
dalam sendiriku kutelusuri suara ombakmu
yang kian memudar
aku rindu kita yang dulu ada
ingin kujemput waktu yang runtuhkan keterasingan kita
dan goreskan cinta yang tumbuh dalam kebersamaan

Tentang pagi yang suarakan riak-riak kenangan
masih adakah ruang untuk kita?

(Bandung, February 2009)


**dedicated to meulaboh and beloved ones there**